Couldn't stop smilling as i walk bak frm the study area to my hostel at 1.45am. I was really tired, but nonetheless, happy. Full of joy.
I dun noe why, I can't really explain, maybe it's becoz of all the things tat had happened rite after midnite. Coz before tat, i was the moody me. Struggling hard to pry open my eyes to study chemistry. It wasn't easy at all. When i'm not taking naps in the study area, i would be awake doin chemistry n feeling grumpy.
Anyway, things tat happened wasn't good things, in fact it was the total opposite. But through tis, i learn to see God working in my life, how He help me through even when things seemed to be in a state of despair.
Actually, wat happened was, during midnite, i went to the cafe n celebrated a birthday wit my classmate. After the celebration, i was gonna head bak to the study area to cont my studies, but part of my slippers snapped n i was left wit oni one usable slipper (Sigh..of all time..now..).
Anyway, the journey frm cafe to the study area seemed to stretch to a mile long when u hav oni one slipper to walk wit (Sigh louder..). Yet, i still manage to get myself bak to the study area, wondering wat would i wear on my foot for the rest of the term. I can't be wearing shoes all the time..
To cut long story short, wit the help of one of my friends, Derric, i manage to repair my slippers n hopefully it will last till the end of the term when i can go bak Klang n get a new pair. Thank you soo much Derric! (should be correct gua, the spelling) n i really really thank God for putting these ppl in my life to help me. Thank you Daddy!! =)
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Fasting..
-Every Monday.
-For the coming christmas gig.
-8am-7pm.
-Oni on food, but still consuming PLAIN water.
*Dear God, pls sustain me throughout the day n help me not to faint out of hunger.*
I dun really hav a prayer journal, but i might as well write all my requests in tis blog.
Pls take care of my parents as they go India for a 1 week trip.
Pls provide my younger brother wit self-control as he execute his evil plans of ripping the hse apart when my parents r gone. (haha..)
Pls look after my older brother as he study hard in Nottingham, semenyih.
Pls heal all of my friends who r sick n feeling unwell. Take away their discomfort n grant them speedy recovery.(n for those who r healthy, let them stay healthy)
Pls help me n my friends in our studies as we start cramming for exams n assessments which is just around the corner.
Pls take care of everyone i love.I noe U love them more.
There's so much more tat i've wanted to request, but i can't tink of it at the moment.
Numbed brain.
I shall update further when i remember. =)
-Every Monday.
-For the coming christmas gig.
-8am-7pm.
-Oni on food, but still consuming PLAIN water.
*Dear God, pls sustain me throughout the day n help me not to faint out of hunger.*
I dun really hav a prayer journal, but i might as well write all my requests in tis blog.
Pls take care of my parents as they go India for a 1 week trip.
Pls provide my younger brother wit self-control as he execute his evil plans of ripping the hse apart when my parents r gone. (haha..)
Pls look after my older brother as he study hard in Nottingham, semenyih.
Pls heal all of my friends who r sick n feeling unwell. Take away their discomfort n grant them speedy recovery.(n for those who r healthy, let them stay healthy)
Pls help me n my friends in our studies as we start cramming for exams n assessments which is just around the corner.
Pls take care of everyone i love.I noe U love them more.
There's so much more tat i've wanted to request, but i can't tink of it at the moment.
Numbed brain.
I shall update further when i remember. =)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
*Sigh...*
My activities of the day in brief (yup, in underwears) :
rise n shine
bathe
study, study, study
lunch
study, study, study
dinner
bathe
Girls talk wit a friend (relationship issue again la, wat else)
study, study, study
Wat a miserable day. STUDY!!!
After dinner i couldn't even concentrate anymore.
The sight of books n notes numbs me, my brain.
So, i sat in the study area, for an hour n a half lookin at the same page.
Maybe i was daydreaming, i dun noe.
But, i noe tat a thousand thoughts was running through my mind in tat short span of 90 mins.
I was distracted.
By wat? Or rather who?
My lips are sealed.
Just in case u're reading tis Mark, it's not tat good looking christian guy in my uni.
Coz there's none. Tat u should noe of, yet.
Bak to my story.
After 90mins of staring into space, or rather boring holes into my physic notes n gained nothing. I decided to head bak to hostel. Feeling rather emo..
So, b4 i go bak, i went to the cafe to get ice-cream.
Got my ice-cream n went to the counter, nobody was there, as usual.
The cashier was brewing teh for customers. (seriously, they should employ more workers)
I wasn't in the mood to wait like i usually do.
Besides, i'm tired of eating melted ice-cream.
So, i unwrapped the ice-cream n started eating rite in front of the counter.
The cashier practically flew over.
So i paid n left.
On the way bak to my hostel, i walk pass a couple.
Dun noe them.
Overheard their conversation.
Shallow people they are.
Then i met a 2nd pair.
*sigh..* my classmate.
She look over n smile at me, so i smiled bak.
So fake.
Then i continue walking.
Reach my block.
Climb up a whole 4 flight of stairs.
Reach my unit n went in.
"U cry ah, Sin Yee?" was the 1st question i heard.
Of course i wasn't crying.
Even if i was, i wun show.
So i went online n wrote tis blog.
Love to blog during emo days.
Tat's why i have so many emo post.
Sry i dun noe how to include U in my life today God, i will try 2mrw.
I promise.
*Sigh..*
My activities of the day in brief (yup, in underwears) :
rise n shine
bathe
study, study, study
lunch
study, study, study
dinner
bathe
Girls talk wit a friend (relationship issue again la, wat else)
study, study, study
Wat a miserable day. STUDY!!!
After dinner i couldn't even concentrate anymore.
The sight of books n notes numbs me, my brain.
So, i sat in the study area, for an hour n a half lookin at the same page.
Maybe i was daydreaming, i dun noe.
But, i noe tat a thousand thoughts was running through my mind in tat short span of 90 mins.
I was distracted.
By wat? Or rather who?
My lips are sealed.
Just in case u're reading tis Mark, it's not tat good looking christian guy in my uni.
Coz there's none. Tat u should noe of, yet.
Bak to my story.
After 90mins of staring into space, or rather boring holes into my physic notes n gained nothing. I decided to head bak to hostel. Feeling rather emo..
So, b4 i go bak, i went to the cafe to get ice-cream.
Got my ice-cream n went to the counter, nobody was there, as usual.
The cashier was brewing teh for customers. (seriously, they should employ more workers)
I wasn't in the mood to wait like i usually do.
Besides, i'm tired of eating melted ice-cream.
So, i unwrapped the ice-cream n started eating rite in front of the counter.
The cashier practically flew over.
So i paid n left.
On the way bak to my hostel, i walk pass a couple.
Dun noe them.
Overheard their conversation.
Shallow people they are.
Then i met a 2nd pair.
*sigh..* my classmate.
She look over n smile at me, so i smiled bak.
So fake.
Then i continue walking.
Reach my block.
Climb up a whole 4 flight of stairs.
Reach my unit n went in.
"U cry ah, Sin Yee?" was the 1st question i heard.
Of course i wasn't crying.
Even if i was, i wun show.
So i went online n wrote tis blog.
Love to blog during emo days.
Tat's why i have so many emo post.
Sry i dun noe how to include U in my life today God, i will try 2mrw.
I promise.
*Sigh..*
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Jesus Is The Reason We Celebrate The Season
Christmas is coming up!
Can't wait to for the christmas celebration here(Aimst) as well as in Klang! Jesus is truly the reason for the season! Tat is our christmas theme for Port Klang Gospel Hall(PKGH) christmas celebration tis year!! Unc Sam wans all youth to be involve in it, but guess i'm not really part of the youth, not anymore anyway... (emo-ing..) They did say somethin bout excommunicating me for missin tis year church camp in Cameron. Ish!! betrayal!! Haha.. but I don't tink i can do anything though, me being here in Aimst,Kedah. However, i could take part in the Christmas gig organized by Aimst cf, given i'm not too busy preparing for my term 2.
Hmm... THANK GOD dat everything didn't really clash, all the activities. (I'm already starting to plan my christmas hol,haha..) Thank God dat i won't be missing the...
1. christmas gig in Aimst -16 Dec
2. yearly celebration wit OA -2o Dec (Yay!! I miss the waterfall!!)
3. christmas celebration in my church -25 Dec
4. unofficial trip for yf to go Bukit Cahaya for cycling- dates yet to be decided. (i heard the gears r rotten,still the fellowship is wat matters ^_^)
Christmas is truly a time to remind ourself of the reason we're alive n well rite now. So many a times we forget about tis n christmas became another unmeaningful celebration jz like any other, we became so ignorant of the truth dat we did not see the significant of tis. Wat truth? Santa? Of course not!! It's the truth tat Jesus who was CRUCIFIED on the cross to save us was born on tis day. It's THE day God send HIS SON down to earth to save us, His precious sons n daughters.
To so many ppl out there, christians or non, christmas is jz another festive season where we get hols, enjoy ourself, take a break, hav fun n etc.. Tat's pretty sad. I mean we can hv fun of cos, there's nothin wrong bout tat at all, i'd take tis oppurtunity to hav fun too, but we're missing the reason for the season. Wat significant is there celebrating a festival n yet dun noe wat u're celebrating about. I won't deny dat i was once like tat, christmas is about chrismas trees, gifts, food, hol, fun n friends. But as the years passes me by, i learned. Learned bout how sinful i am n how holy n gracious He is. Learned how he stooped so low to be a servant in tis serve-me world. How can a king come to tis world to serve us? I dun c many kings around who is willing to serve others, n yet, He came.
Thank You, Father.
Ps: I'm skipping physics lecture rite now btw, coz i loss my textbook,spend the 1st hour of physic lecture looking for it in every inch of the school compound, n now, dun feel like going since i'm already 1 hour late. However, just got a msg from my friend tat she mistook it n brought it bak. Thank God it's found. =)
Can't wait to for the christmas celebration here(Aimst) as well as in Klang! Jesus is truly the reason for the season! Tat is our christmas theme for Port Klang Gospel Hall(PKGH) christmas celebration tis year!! Unc Sam wans all youth to be involve in it, but guess i'm not really part of the youth, not anymore anyway... (emo-ing..) They did say somethin bout excommunicating me for missin tis year church camp in Cameron. Ish!! betrayal!! Haha.. but I don't tink i can do anything though, me being here in Aimst,Kedah. However, i could take part in the Christmas gig organized by Aimst cf, given i'm not too busy preparing for my term 2.
Hmm... THANK GOD dat everything didn't really clash, all the activities. (I'm already starting to plan my christmas hol,haha..) Thank God dat i won't be missing the...
1. christmas gig in Aimst -16 Dec
2. yearly celebration wit OA -2o Dec (Yay!! I miss the waterfall!!)
3. christmas celebration in my church -25 Dec
4. unofficial trip for yf to go Bukit Cahaya for cycling- dates yet to be decided. (i heard the gears r rotten,still the fellowship is wat matters ^_^)
Christmas is truly a time to remind ourself of the reason we're alive n well rite now. So many a times we forget about tis n christmas became another unmeaningful celebration jz like any other, we became so ignorant of the truth dat we did not see the significant of tis. Wat truth? Santa? Of course not!! It's the truth tat Jesus who was CRUCIFIED on the cross to save us was born on tis day. It's THE day God send HIS SON down to earth to save us, His precious sons n daughters.
To so many ppl out there, christians or non, christmas is jz another festive season where we get hols, enjoy ourself, take a break, hav fun n etc.. Tat's pretty sad. I mean we can hv fun of cos, there's nothin wrong bout tat at all, i'd take tis oppurtunity to hav fun too, but we're missing the reason for the season. Wat significant is there celebrating a festival n yet dun noe wat u're celebrating about. I won't deny dat i was once like tat, christmas is about chrismas trees, gifts, food, hol, fun n friends. But as the years passes me by, i learned. Learned bout how sinful i am n how holy n gracious He is. Learned how he stooped so low to be a servant in tis serve-me world. How can a king come to tis world to serve us? I dun c many kings around who is willing to serve others, n yet, He came.
Thank You, Father.
Ps: I'm skipping physics lecture rite now btw, coz i loss my textbook,spend the 1st hour of physic lecture looking for it in every inch of the school compound, n now, dun feel like going since i'm already 1 hour late. However, just got a msg from my friend tat she mistook it n brought it bak. Thank God it's found. =)
Saturday, October 24, 2009
It got me thinking real hard
Thought provoking question by Anna yesterday when we were waiting for Thomson to come to the car in Nasmir..It got me thinking real hard.Below is the conversation we had,as far as i can remember..
"Sin Yee,dun u hv any probs in ur life?"
"sure got ah.." was my answer,i mean after all,who doesn't? "well..i juz finish my quiz,so waiting for result is a prob."
"Everybody faces tat la,we're all student ma,i mean probs as in some other probs besides studies." says Anna
"oh.."then i started thinking..
Actually i kinda noe wat was she refering to, she was talking bout her relationships prob, coz i tink she's feeling bothered by her feelings...her feelings for a guy..ahem..i shan't say anythin more,haha..
But anyway,wat was i gonna say again?
Oh ya..bout the question.
Of coz i got probs in my life!! Tons of them. They may not impact my life in a big way but they're still there~!! But i dun really hv girl guy relationship probs though, something i'm really really thankful about. Those can ruin ur life, as far as i noe.haha.
Am i abnormal? Or i juz dun find joy in hving crushes anymore.I'm weird,hands down.
I remember me n my friends used to check out n hv crushes on guys when we 1st started sec school (very few oni,since not many guys r worth it,haha). n along the years, the list grows longer very gradually, n finally,when i reach uni, the list just stop. Just like tat.Stopped.
Maybe bcoz it's no more fun anymore, most of my friends, roommates, r hving bf. They would not spend time discussing bout crushes. They'll oni bore me to death wit stories of their bf..on how adorable, thoughtful, sweet..etc etc..they r. Ayo-o-o-oh..!
But on the other hand, i've been too busy coping up wit my new life n studying tat i dun hv time to check out guys. haha. sad wei.. anyway, i'm happy just the way i am rite now,though i'l admit tat somtimes i do envy my friends,haha.But still, no guys prob, oni my daddy n my bros in my life, n a burning passion to serve God! Bliss.
Cheers.
"Sin Yee,dun u hv any probs in ur life?"
"sure got ah.." was my answer,i mean after all,who doesn't? "well..i juz finish my quiz,so waiting for result is a prob."
"Everybody faces tat la,we're all student ma,i mean probs as in some other probs besides studies." says Anna
"oh.."then i started thinking..
Actually i kinda noe wat was she refering to, she was talking bout her relationships prob, coz i tink she's feeling bothered by her feelings...her feelings for a guy..ahem..i shan't say anythin more,haha..
But anyway,wat was i gonna say again?
Oh ya..bout the question.
Of coz i got probs in my life!! Tons of them. They may not impact my life in a big way but they're still there~!! But i dun really hv girl guy relationship probs though, something i'm really really thankful about. Those can ruin ur life, as far as i noe.haha.
Am i abnormal? Or i juz dun find joy in hving crushes anymore.I'm weird,hands down.
I remember me n my friends used to check out n hv crushes on guys when we 1st started sec school (very few oni,since not many guys r worth it,haha). n along the years, the list grows longer very gradually, n finally,when i reach uni, the list just stop. Just like tat.Stopped.
Maybe bcoz it's no more fun anymore, most of my friends, roommates, r hving bf. They would not spend time discussing bout crushes. They'll oni bore me to death wit stories of their bf..on how adorable, thoughtful, sweet..etc etc..they r. Ayo-o-o-oh..!
But on the other hand, i've been too busy coping up wit my new life n studying tat i dun hv time to check out guys. haha. sad wei.. anyway, i'm happy just the way i am rite now,though i'l admit tat somtimes i do envy my friends,haha.But still, no guys prob, oni my daddy n my bros in my life, n a burning passion to serve God! Bliss.
Cheers.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Memorable 18th birthday!
12 Oct!! My birthday!!
Thought i was gonna hv a quiet birthday tis year.. It's the 1st time over the past 17 years of my life tat i didn't celebrate wit my family,didn't go out n hv a great dinner together n didn't buy a cake for celebration, i feel like i kinda broke the tradition.. NO amount of crying-under-blanket is gonna cure tis nostalgic feeling of mine.. haha, i didn't cry of course, jz feeling a huge pang of sadness somewhere in my heart.
But i didn't hv a quiet b'day though, my friends actually threw my a surprise b'day party.. It's kinda funny actually,haha.. Tis is how it happens....
**As i came bak frm a pleasant dinner wit my niece to Juru, one of my hsemates told me she wanted to get ice-cream frm cafe as she was feeling down. She wans me to teman her, (n i happily thought she's adapting to my way of curing down-ness,haha) so i agreed to follow her..
It was almost midnite, the perfect time for ice-cream ( according to Sin Yee,hehe ), so me n a few more hsemates went down wit her to get ice-cream.
Rite b4 we reach the cafe, she received a cal, then wrapped her arms around me n told me she wanted to tell me sth, her problem tat made her so sad. I was,of course, more tat happy to listen to her.. So,the other hsemates went in the cafe 1st, to get their 'ice-cream', n she took me on a tour, walking n talking..Saying tat she called the guy she had liked for many years n planned to confess her feelings for him n in the end she didn't do it..sth like tat la..
Anyway,after tat she receive another phone cal n after tat, turned to me "Lets go get ice-cream!". So she steered me bak to the cafe..
I was kinda speechless when my friends started singing b'day song as i entered the cafe. I never thought they would do tis 4 me!! n my hsemates tat has disappeared all days were also there. After the singing (Mark even brought a guitar along!), it all goes on like how a b'day party should be, the making of wishes, cutting of cakes, smearing of cream n taking of pictures!! Hehe.. All in all, it was enjoyable. (oh,n the stories my hsemates came up wit? It was jz to distract me coz the ppl in the cafe couldn't find the lighter! Oh man.. haha.. ) **
The rest of the day was great!! I had so much fun,ice-cream n chocolate tat i tink i need to go on diet,soon.Haha..Princess for a day. No,i'm always a princess in my daddy's eyes.. =>
Really really thank God for all my friends here in Aimst n everything He has done for me. I tink i'm beginning to like tis initially uncomfortable zone tat God has placed me in. I pray tat i'll be able to draw closer to Him as the days passes by n get to know n love Him more n more, each day more than the last, i also pray tat He'll mould me into the person He wans me to be n help me as i start embracing adulthood n take responsibilities for my action.Now i'm legal,haha. (Tat's wat my friends keep telling me, perhaps i was illegal b4 tis?)
I AM THANKFUL. =)
Ps: I'm 18!! 18!!
Thought i was gonna hv a quiet birthday tis year.. It's the 1st time over the past 17 years of my life tat i didn't celebrate wit my family,didn't go out n hv a great dinner together n didn't buy a cake for celebration, i feel like i kinda broke the tradition.. NO amount of crying-under-blanket is gonna cure tis nostalgic feeling of mine.. haha, i didn't cry of course, jz feeling a huge pang of sadness somewhere in my heart.
But i didn't hv a quiet b'day though, my friends actually threw my a surprise b'day party.. It's kinda funny actually,haha.. Tis is how it happens....
**As i came bak frm a pleasant dinner wit my niece to Juru, one of my hsemates told me she wanted to get ice-cream frm cafe as she was feeling down. She wans me to teman her, (n i happily thought she's adapting to my way of curing down-ness,haha) so i agreed to follow her..
It was almost midnite, the perfect time for ice-cream ( according to Sin Yee,hehe ), so me n a few more hsemates went down wit her to get ice-cream.
Rite b4 we reach the cafe, she received a cal, then wrapped her arms around me n told me she wanted to tell me sth, her problem tat made her so sad. I was,of course, more tat happy to listen to her.. So,the other hsemates went in the cafe 1st, to get their 'ice-cream', n she took me on a tour, walking n talking..Saying tat she called the guy she had liked for many years n planned to confess her feelings for him n in the end she didn't do it..sth like tat la..
Anyway,after tat she receive another phone cal n after tat, turned to me "Lets go get ice-cream!". So she steered me bak to the cafe..
I was kinda speechless when my friends started singing b'day song as i entered the cafe. I never thought they would do tis 4 me!! n my hsemates tat has disappeared all days were also there. After the singing (Mark even brought a guitar along!), it all goes on like how a b'day party should be, the making of wishes, cutting of cakes, smearing of cream n taking of pictures!! Hehe.. All in all, it was enjoyable. (oh,n the stories my hsemates came up wit? It was jz to distract me coz the ppl in the cafe couldn't find the lighter! Oh man.. haha.. ) **
The rest of the day was great!! I had so much fun,ice-cream n chocolate tat i tink i need to go on diet,soon.Haha..Princess for a day. No,i'm always a princess in my daddy's eyes.. =>
Really really thank God for all my friends here in Aimst n everything He has done for me. I tink i'm beginning to like tis initially uncomfortable zone tat God has placed me in. I pray tat i'll be able to draw closer to Him as the days passes by n get to know n love Him more n more, each day more than the last, i also pray tat He'll mould me into the person He wans me to be n help me as i start embracing adulthood n take responsibilities for my action.Now i'm legal,haha. (Tat's wat my friends keep telling me, perhaps i was illegal b4 tis?)
I AM THANKFUL. =)
Ps: I'm 18!! 18!!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Oh God,help!!
Dear heavenly daddy,u noe wat i'm going through,pls help me,help me keep to my term 2 resolutions n cure me of msn-overdose.In Jesus name.Amen.
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