Beeeezzee betul!

It's been almost a month since i last posted anything? Yes, i almost forgot bout the existence of this blog. and i have nothing much to post, i suppose.

OK, lets start with the coming weekend. It's going to be very HECTIC! I've got to teach tuition in church, prepare some food stuff for the YF makan for approx 50 ppl, chair the makan and sunday bible study, and do some sharing for bible study. Hmm.. basically, the bible study session is mostly taken up by me(with the P&W and sharing). Argh! How am i suppose to manage?!

*chanting and meditating upon Phil 4:13*

Fuh.. Somehow i even had nightmares bout this weekend, it's like playing endless mode on dinner dash. What if i messed up? I hope not! Anyway, i need prayers. Lots of them. And since my whole family will be up in Genting for the weekend(can't go due to all those stuff la!), i'll be home alone. Freeeeedom! Bwahaha!

Another interesting thing to note today is...
I qualified for the Oxford Brookes University Law programme! Thank God for that. I was quite worried since i didn't do A-Levels or STPM, all i did was a foundation in SCIENCE! Can you believe it?! Well, science has nothing to do with law! and they miraculously accepted my application! Truly, all glory to God. If i do choose to take this route, it would meant 2 years in KDU and 1 year in UK. Well, shall pray bout it if it's His will for me to go down this route since He has opened up a way. =)

Being selfish :(

What am i doing? Why am i so selfish when it comes to serving God? Isn't it that everything i have comes from Him? So WHY?!

I had all this thoughts as i emerge from PKGH library after 4 hours of yf committe meeting. Firstly, it has really taken a toll on all of us for sitting through that 4 hours in a room brainstorming bout future plans and problems. However, through this.. i now know how reluctant i am in serving Him. (you can't imagine how horrified i was when i was asked to share sth about my college life in yf)

I felt that the fire in me to serve that i once have has dwindled into almost nothing now. I wanna find back the passion, and learn to care for others like how He cared for me, to serve Him with all my heart without holding back on anything.

I'm sorry, Lord, for my reluctance serving You. Please forgive me, please rekindled the fire in me to serve You whole-heartedly. Please guide me through everything as i try my best to give my all to You. Please let me understand that what i do for You is nothing comapare to what You've done for me at the cross of calvary. I love You, Daddy. =)