Why is tis happening?

Since i came to Aimst,there's been so many times where i've been so discouraged n frustrated wit myself..n i dun noe y..I've reach the lowest point of my spiritual life n i started get angry at God so easily n so often,which i dun normally do,i've been very contented n satisfied wit my life all the while,giving thanks to God durin my ups n even downs.But i dun noe y is it so different here.Is it bcoz i wasn't close to home?to my christian friends tat i'm familiar wit bak in Klang? Or is it bcoz i hv grown distant to Him due to my inconsistency in spending time wit Him?

I hate to admit it,but i really spend so much lesser time wit Him since i came here,i'm surrounded by friends/roommates all the time n when i'm not socializing wit them,i'll be studying,goin for sports,on the net n etc.

I wanna read my bible more,communicate wit Him more,but somehow most of the time i'd spend tat reserved-for-God 30mins to talk to my friends(or in bed -sleeping),it's just very difficult to resist tis coz they're ALWAYS around..All the time..There's no escape.

I've tried to go through a silent day(in which i wun talk unless really neccessary)so tat i could quieten myself for Him n Him alone,but somehow my friends will take it tat i'm being emo n tried to talk as much as possible to me,by evening,i would already start talking like i've er... recovered frm my emo-ness..

I do make it a point to go to prayer meeting n cf as frequently as i can,but most of the time,i feel like i talked to my christian friends more than i talked to God,i fellowship wit ppl around more than i fellowship wit God.It's like goin there to socialize or something n prayer n worship was oni part of the agenda.I dun like tis.God is supposed to be the center of it all,all the time,but i feel tat He is oni in the center at the moment of praise n worship or prayer.After prayer,ppl would put God at the back of their head n go into socializing mood,talkin,laughing n asking bout the most ridiculous stuff.Not to say tat tis happen all the time or blaming anyone for tis to be happening,but seriously,wat is our focus here?There r ppl who oni goes when there's friends goin,friends who told me tat if i go,then they'll go.Yes,the cf n prayer group seemed to be growing but is it for the right reason?N ppl join a church jz bcoz their friends is over there?Jessy told me she joined spcc bcoz she like the ppl over here.Hmm..Y isn't it bcoz of God?Isn't He supposed to be the main purpose we hv fellowship in the 1st place?I'm not trying to say tat fellowshipping is wrong,in fact,fellowship among believers is actually encouraged by God to strengthen each other in christ,but ppl jz do it for a different reason..

I find tis place strange n unfamiliar even after 4 months of trying to adapt to it.I may liked all my friends n all but my spiritual life is really er..in the sad state of rotting.I need to spend a one-to-one time wit God,jz me n Him,but i find it really hard to do it here,n spendin time wit Him in the midst of some believers has proved to be quite unfruitful too..