I find tis amusing,yet true in some ways!haha..
The Best Poem Of 2006-Written by an African Kid
When I born, I black
When I grow up, I black
When I go in sun, I black
When I scared, I black
When I sick, I black
And when I die, I still black
And you white fellow
When you born, you pink
When you grow up, you white
When you go in sun, you red
When you cold, you blue
When you scared, you yellow
When you sick, you green
And when you die, you gray
And you calling me coloured???
Holiday Time!!
Although oni 2 weeks,but it's better than nothin la,better than waitin 4 the 2 off days of weekend which takes eternity to come n passes by like an extreme case of corona discharge(lightning),haha.
I'm content,although my plans to go IBA Unplugged is er..not goin on as i planned,but i still get to spend some quality time wit my family,especially wit my hermit old bro.My mom keeps nagging me on da same thing for YEARS!
"Why do u give out ur room to ur bro?Look!He's hiding in there all day 'laying eggs' ah?He oni leave the room for food!bla,bla,bla..."
Well i never regretted it,haha,i get to spend more time bonding wit my younger bro sharin a room wit him.N comin bak frm Kedah,i'm the oni one allowed to enter my old bro lair without getting 'shoo' away(Wohoo!).I can kacau his stuff (sry kor),ask him to play movie on his desktop n watch it together(although he already watch it),n he even bring me out for yu yu ice!Which is a surprise since he is sometimes quite kedekut one..(I added the word 'sometimes' jz in case my kor is readin tis,hehe!)
But anyway,i'm goin bukit cahaya tis fri wit my youth!Yay!We're gonna cycle around tat bukit or sth.(i tink my kor coming too,he's takin a leave frm his part-time work) My kor say there's a 4 season hse there (sth like tat) n nw should be spring or somethin.haha,can't wait to go!Too bad Weevien goin KK,she's going to a gunung n we hv to be content wit a bukit..(Weevien!You better get somethin bak 4 me or...er...dun come bak!haha..)
Oh oh,n da youth movie nite noon-(coz in d afternoon)last sun in Joanna n Brenda hse er.. makes me feel tired d rest of d day(I tink it made everyone tired too)..I was already sleepin on my way bak home in Belinda's car..We shouldn't watch 'bedtime story' durin d noon..Ok,lesson learned.
I'm estatic.Content.
all girls
Makan time!!
-Me,Lyon,Joshua,Davina,Chui Yeng n Colin-
dorm 1 darlings!!
ivy,char,me n shu en
NGC(Nilai Gospel Chapel)
friendship made
end of nilai trip
Shirtlift-Go lite yr world =)
games time!!Shirtlift rules!! 
another gone case
me n chui yeng
rbs 'sexy' guys.. =.=
ss guys
Hmm...I'm confused(again).Wat should i do in the future?Medic?Dentistry?It somehow reminds me of a poem i once studied in sec school...
Wat SHOULD i do!?Wat COULD i do!?I really dun noe..I 1st came to AIMST wanting 100% to do dentistry.My parents wans me 2 do it,n in all i do,i try 2 obey n honour them,so here i am.But somehow,i'm not sure if it's somethin i wanna do.Since i came to AIMST,i've been swayed back n forth countless time,coz i tink i'm starting to gain an interest in studying medic.I 1st got my inspiration from a senior medic student,Thomson.He studied medic mainly 4 God,bcoz he felt it's his calling.I tink it's God tat keeps him going on in studying medic,coz without real passion,takin tis route would be super super hard.Ppl always says i should choose somethin tat i like so tat i would not regret it in d future.The reason i gain an interest in medic is bcoz i wanna help ppl,i wanna go to poor countries of d world to aid all who needs help,not oni spiritually but also in terms of health.n choosing 2 be a dentist,d things i would be able 2 do 2 help is pretty limited.Hmm..In spite of everything,i noe i should do wat God wans me to do(it might not be any of d 2 options tat i mention)coz no matter wat,i trust He will giv me d strength when i'm tired,comfort n refuge when i'm discourage,n d will to continue when i'm in d verge of breakdown.
(Current state of mind:40% medic,59%dentistry,1%others)
LORD,
I pray tat U'll help me be still so tat i can hear yr almost-silent,small voice speaking to me.Help me 2 tune in into Yr channel,to always listen 2 U n seek U 1st in all i do.I dun wanna listen to my ugly,constantly screaming voice,or others or d devils'.I wanna hear U,Lord.Tell me wat 2 do,giv me d wisdom 2 decide wisely according 2 Yr will,not mine.Close all doors tat doesn't lead 2 Yr purpose 4 me in life,Father,pls..Lord i trust U wit all my heart,i do not wan2 lean on my own understanding;in all my ways i acknowledge U,n i noe U will make my path straight.I do not wan2 be wise in my own eyes;i chose to fear U n shun evil.Lead me Lord i pray.Everyday i hold on unto yr promise Lord.
"I will instruct u n teach u in d way u should go;I will cousel u n watch over u." -Psalm32:8-
Thank you Father,4 everything n 4 watching over me as i step into a whole new phase of life over here in AIMST.I love U,daddy.Amen.
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*Ok,no more blogging 4 d rest of d week(lead me not into temptation,Lord),n back 2 my boring life of studies.Exam is just around d corner(starting nxt mon,actually).I'm super nervous,feeling guilty 4 writing tis post,should hv use d time 4 my studies,oh well...too late..haha..
1st term of uni life is about 2 end,i wouldn't say it's a 3 months well spent,looking at all d way i utilize my time here.However,uni life has really been a bittersweet experience n there's sooo much 2 thank God 4.I've picked out 20 frm a whole bunch,including bad things 2 remind myself tat d trouble i face is not bcoz Gods wills it,but bcoz He wans 2 mould me into d person He wans me 2 b.Thank you Lord..Thank you father for:
1)my parents who send me here n provided so much 4 me.(Love ya,mom n daddy)
2)my roommates who had miraculously,endlessly tolerating all my nonsensical behaviours.
3)My friend,Alex,who had been checking up on me every so often,giving me so much encouragement n making sure tat i does not slack in faith.
4)giving me d courage to step out of d boundaries of my comfort zone in klang n come 2 kedah although i was really reluctant at 1st.
5)being there 4 me + leading n guiding me in all tat i do,every step of d way.
6)hving a CF in AIMST tat i will be able to stay strong 2gether wit my bro n sis in christ through fellowshipping wit U n them.
7)the church(SPCC)tat i'm attending,where i can come n give u praise n worship n to draw myself nearer to u every week.
8)the opportunity to serve U n being available 4 U as U has always been 4 me.
9)the air tat i breathe.
10)every brand new morning i'm alive.
11)all d wonderful ppl whom i call friends.
12)all d ppl in AIMST tat hv given me help when i needed it most.
13)er..the sanitation engineer(cleaner) tat cleans d living room n toilet every week(thank god,really)
14)the functioning ceiling fan in my room,especially during noon where i always can't help but take a nap.
15)all d workload,homework,assignment,quiz.
16)unreasonable lecturers.
17)flies in d cafe.
18)weekly dierrhea tat i got frm d cafe food.
19)term 1 test which is oni 2 weeks away.
20)the 2 weeks holiday after d test.
A Really Narrow Road..
I've always known tat we're pilgrims on a journey of d narrow road,n d walk wit God is pretty rocky.But a wise friend told me(bout a month ago)tat.. (wait..checking my inbox)
"Dun be deceived by tat impression(tat your life would be smooth sailing just because you trust God).We all struggle n tat should b d way.There's no way we can lead a victorious life because 'we r at d peak dy',we need to live in constant reliance in Him...."-Alex-
I had come to AIMST wit a burning desire to seek n 2 serve God here(although i wasn't sure in wat area then),n also a determination 2 prove to every1 in my church tat college/uni life will not pull me away frm God like how it had happened to so many others who had gone before me.Sad 2 say tat there WAS a period of time where God just felt so far away..so unreachable..it's so demoralizing..I was lost,undecided on which church 2 settle on although i kinda noe which church God is urging me 2 go,i prayed bout it a lot,but...I had preference too..Previously being a teakwondo state fighter,i was really attached 2 my teakwondo class(which clashes wit my church YF,training 6 days a week ma) tat 4 d whole of my secondary school life i never attended YF.Naturally,I was estatic noe-ing there's a teakwondo club in campus n i bcame really fond of my taekwondo lessons here in AIMST (plus d fact tat d seniors was like 'Wah!!Y u so fast 1?' n the coaches keeps pushing me 2 be better,it reminds me of d good old days).Unfortunately,d lessons clashes wit CF n church(yup,it's on wed n fri),but i've found an alternative option,i've decided to go church on saturday instead(FGA),and as 4 CF,2 bad la...I though problem solved,i can go for my teakwondo lesson without missing out on church at the same time.But,i felt guilty everytime i attended church,i tried to rationa-lies tat at least i'm making an effort not 2 miss church,i'm still faithful,aren't i?Man,was i wrong!!One morn as i was doing my devotion,i came across 1 Samuel:22.It hit me like a brick on d face.Again n again as a read it several times.
22"Does the Lord delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord?To obey is better than sacrifice,and to heed is better than the fat of rams."
I'm sorry Father...I really am..(n i did eventually stop my lesson however painful it might be,praise God!!)
In d area of serving,it's still ambigous on which area i'm gonna serve.Through rbs,i've finally manage 2 conquer my fear which had regretfully prevented me frm serving God 4 d past 5 years.I was hoping to serve in my church 4 a longer period 2 gain confidence in serving Him but instead He has other plans 4 me.His plans eventually landed me in Kedah,wit a whole new environment,new circle of friends,new church n etc.I've notice tat my fear is slowly trickling bak bit by bit when i move to a whole new unfamiliar environment,i've lost all d Gods' confidence i gain n learned frm rbs.Whenever ppl ask if i'm willing to serve,d 1st responds my not-so-smart brain gave is a loud scream of 'NOoooo...!! I can't! I'm jz not good enough,look at d person nxt 2 me!! He/She is so much better in doing it!! '.It takes all d strength i hv in me 2 stop my mouth frm saying it out loud coz d truth is,i really wan2 serve God,i hv 2 make myself say 'yes',to go against wat i fear,which often drains me,i'm tired...The fact tat there's no 1 close enough 4 me 2 share wat i felt makes things a lot more harder than wat they should be..Help me,Father.
