I love to write journal. i really do.
But at the same time, i'm lazy. Very lazy.
I feel as if everytime i take out my journal, i'll have writer's block.
I have no idea wat to write, or maybe i just have nothing to write, or maybe i'm just plain lazy in writing.
n brilliantly good in finding an explaination for tis.
I love ranting too, i could just rant on for hours n hours on irrevelent stuff (like now), but i spare ppl the misery of listening (or reading) it, unless they read tis post willingly.
I love complaining too, one of my hobbies (kidding), but i dun do it often. It's annoying, i noe.
Tat's why, i do selective complaining.
Not in choosing wat to complain, but whom to complain to.
I oni choose ppl whom i'm comfy wit their presence, so consider it a good thing if i always complain to u. Tat means i'm so comfy wit ur presence tat i wun paiseh paiseh wit u, or try hard to maintain tat image or smile when tat's the last thing i wanna do on planet earth.
Tat's the prob wit the world, everytime u meet new ppl, u'll try to make a good impression.
So, ppl conceal watever it is they feel inside n project a total oppposite of wat they're feeling.
If u dun show tat pleasant side of u, ppl tink u memang emo or u're a born hermit or sth.
Weird.
Anyway, bak to ranting n complaining bout ranting n complaining.
Where was i?
Oh ya, selective complaining.
How come God doesn't complain n yet He make us ppl who complain alot?
He likes to listen?
Maybe..maybe..
n yup, i like to grumble n complain to him a lot.
Tat means i'm really comfy wit His presence. A good thing.
But there's not much to grumble n complain bout also.
Tat's another good thing. =)
Talking to Him, i never need to conceal wat i feel or wat i am.
He already knows.
n i dun need advise or responds, all i wan is someone whom i can pour out everything to, all i need is for someone to listen, which is perfect.
I noe, there wouldn't be any light shining down on me n *poof*, i'm fine all of a sudden, no more problems, everything tat bothers me disappears.
No, if He hav something to say to me, he has His timing, His perfect timing.
So, i'll wait on Him, n serve while i wait.

Goodness, i can't even put words into proper paragraph, tat shows how tired i am rite now.
Nonetheless, i had an awesome Friday nite in church. Praise God.

Couldn't stop smilling as i walk bak frm the study area to my hostel at 1.45am. I was really tired, but nonetheless, happy. Full of joy.

I dun noe why, I can't really explain, maybe it's becoz of all the things tat had happened rite after midnite. Coz before tat, i was the moody me. Struggling hard to pry open my eyes to study chemistry. It wasn't easy at all. When i'm not taking naps in the study area, i would be awake doin chemistry n feeling grumpy.

Anyway, things tat happened wasn't good things, in fact it was the total opposite. But through tis, i learn to see God working in my life, how He help me through even when things seemed to be in a state of despair.

Actually, wat happened was, during midnite, i went to the cafe n celebrated a birthday wit my classmate. After the celebration, i was gonna head bak to the study area to cont my studies, but part of my slippers snapped n i was left wit oni one usable slipper (Sigh..of all time..now..).

Anyway, the journey frm cafe to the study area seemed to stretch to a mile long when u hav oni one slipper to walk wit (Sigh louder..). Yet, i still manage to get myself bak to the study area, wondering wat would i wear on my foot for the rest of the term. I can't be wearing shoes all the time..

To cut long story short, wit the help of one of my friends, Derric, i manage to repair my slippers n hopefully it will last till the end of the term when i can go bak Klang n get a new pair. Thank you soo much Derric! (should be correct gua, the spelling) n i really really thank God for putting these ppl in my life to help me. Thank you Daddy!! =)

Fasting..

-Every Monday.

-For the coming christmas gig.

-8am-7pm.

-Oni on food, but still consuming PLAIN water.

*Dear God, pls sustain me throughout the day n help me not to faint out of hunger.*

I dun really hav a prayer journal, but i might as well write all my requests in tis blog.

Pls take care of my parents as they go India for a 1 week trip.

Pls provide my younger brother wit self-control as he execute his evil plans of ripping the hse apart when my parents r gone. (haha..)

Pls look after my older brother as he study hard in Nottingham, semenyih.

Pls heal all of my friends who r sick n feeling unwell. Take away their discomfort n grant them speedy recovery.(n for those who r healthy, let them stay healthy)

Pls help me n my friends in our studies as we start cramming for exams n assessments which is just around the corner.

Pls take care of everyone i love.I noe U love them more.

There's so much more tat i've wanted to request, but i can't tink of it at the moment.
Numbed brain.
I shall update further when i remember. =)

*Sigh...*

My activities of the day in brief (yup, in underwears) :

rise n shine
bathe
study, study, study
lunch
study, study, study
dinner
bathe
Girls talk wit a friend (relationship issue again la, wat else)
study, study, study

Wat a miserable day. STUDY!!!
After dinner i couldn't even concentrate anymore.
The sight of books n notes numbs me, my brain.
So, i sat in the study area, for an hour n a half lookin at the same page.
Maybe i was daydreaming, i dun noe.
But, i noe tat a thousand thoughts was running through my mind in tat short span of 90 mins.
I was distracted.
By wat? Or rather who?
My lips are sealed.
Just in case u're reading tis Mark, it's not tat good looking christian guy in my uni.
Coz there's none. Tat u should noe of, yet.

Bak to my story.
After 90mins of staring into space, or rather boring holes into my physic notes n gained nothing. I decided to head bak to hostel. Feeling rather emo..
So, b4 i go bak, i went to the cafe to get ice-cream.
Got my ice-cream n went to the counter, nobody was there, as usual.
The cashier was brewing teh for customers. (seriously, they should employ more workers)
I wasn't in the mood to wait like i usually do.
Besides, i'm tired of eating melted ice-cream.
So, i unwrapped the ice-cream n started eating rite in front of the counter.
The cashier practically flew over.
So i paid n left.

On the way bak to my hostel, i walk pass a couple.
Dun noe them.
Overheard their conversation.
Shallow people they are.
Then i met a 2nd pair.
*sigh..* my classmate.
She look over n smile at me, so i smiled bak.
So fake.
Then i continue walking.
Reach my block.
Climb up a whole 4 flight of stairs.
Reach my unit n went in.
"U cry ah, Sin Yee?" was the 1st question i heard.
Of course i wasn't crying.
Even if i was, i wun show.
So i went online n wrote tis blog.
Love to blog during emo days.
Tat's why i have so many emo post.

Sry i dun noe how to include U in my life today God, i will try 2mrw.
I promise.

*Sigh..*

Jesus Is The Reason We Celebrate The Season

Christmas is coming up!

Can't wait to for the christmas celebration here(Aimst) as well as in Klang! Jesus is truly the reason for the season! Tat is our christmas theme for Port Klang Gospel Hall(PKGH) christmas celebration tis year!! Unc Sam wans all youth to be involve in it, but guess i'm not really part of the youth, not anymore anyway... (emo-ing..) They did say somethin bout excommunicating me for missin tis year church camp in Cameron. Ish!! betrayal!! Haha.. but I don't tink i can do anything though, me being here in Aimst,Kedah. However, i could take part in the Christmas gig organized by Aimst cf, given i'm not too busy preparing for my term 2.

Hmm... THANK GOD dat everything didn't really clash, all the activities. (I'm already starting to plan my christmas hol,haha..) Thank God dat i won't be missing the...

1. christmas gig in Aimst -16 Dec

2. yearly celebration wit OA -2o Dec (Yay!! I miss the waterfall!!)

3. christmas celebration in my church -25 Dec

4. unofficial trip for yf to go Bukit Cahaya for cycling- dates yet to be decided. (i heard the gears r rotten,still the fellowship is wat matters ^_^)

Christmas is truly a time to remind ourself of the reason we're alive n well rite now. So many a times we forget about tis n christmas became another unmeaningful celebration jz like any other, we became so ignorant of the truth dat we did not see the significant of tis. Wat truth? Santa? Of course not!! It's the truth tat Jesus who was CRUCIFIED on the cross to save us was born on tis day. It's THE day God send HIS SON down to earth to save us, His precious sons n daughters.

To so many ppl out there, christians or non, christmas is jz another festive season where we get hols, enjoy ourself, take a break, hav fun n etc.. Tat's pretty sad. I mean we can hv fun of cos, there's nothin wrong bout tat at all, i'd take tis oppurtunity to hav fun too, but we're missing the reason for the season. Wat significant is there celebrating a festival n yet dun noe wat u're celebrating about. I won't deny dat i was once like tat, christmas is about chrismas trees, gifts, food, hol, fun n friends. But as the years passes me by, i learned. Learned bout how sinful i am n how holy n gracious He is. Learned how he stooped so low to be a servant in tis serve-me world. How can a king come to tis world to serve us? I dun c many kings around who is willing to serve others, n yet, He came.

Thank You, Father.

Ps: I'm skipping physics lecture rite now btw, coz i loss my textbook,spend the 1st hour of physic lecture looking for it in every inch of the school compound, n now, dun feel like going since i'm already 1 hour late. However, just got a msg from my friend tat she mistook it n brought it bak. Thank God it's found. =)